Former Optic India member Nikhil "forsaken" Kumawat issued an apology after his involvement in the cheating scandal at Extremesland Asia 2018 that made waves across the esports community.
The disgraced Indian player broke his silence days after unfortunate developments that included the disbandment of Optic India and his ban across multiple CS:GO competitive organizations. The scandal ultimately caused an uproar and left a bad taste for the Indian esports community.
The story as told by the man
In an interview with Indian esports portal AFK Gaming, forsaken shared his side of the story. He confessed his grounds for cheating and apologized to his teammates for the possible effect of his doings to their careers.
I want to start this by apologizing to my teammates, OpTic management and the people who put their trust in me. I feel extremely guilty for stealing away the opportunities from my teammates, each one was extremely talented and I have jeopardized their chances of being where they deserve.
It was all me who wanted to win every game, wanted to be perfect in every aspect of the game. I was confident in my decision making, I was confident in understanding of the game (etc) but was never confident in my aim so to compensate that lack of confidence in aim I had to choose the wrong path.
It was all on him
He also backed the claims of Optic Gaming's International Development Director Jesal Parekh that the rest of his teammates, including their coach and manager are unaware of his deeds until the incident in China.
None of my teammates had any idea of me using any external program including my coach and manager. They simply trusted in me and I am sorry to say I failed them…
I did use hacks inside the bootcamp but it was impossible for them to know… it only gave me a slight advantage in terms of accuracy, precision and better registry of bullets so it was not visible to people observing me outside the game. There were also no instances to doubt me but whenever clips were online I was quick to come up with an excuse and took advantage of their trust in me.
Lastly, he confessed that he regrets playing with the hack, saying that the pressure to deliver got the best of him thus leading him to play with the advantage.
Nothing good has happened to me since the day I started playing the game. I thought this game was for me but since last almost one year I have not been loyal to it.
I gave everything away for the game, I always put this game above everything else and today I realize what I have lost. One thing I always put everything above on and I cheated it.
I saw the holes in the system and I took advantage of it for my own blind, selfish reasons. And I have nothing but regret.
What’s next for the team?
Further investigation by ESL India proved that forsaken also used the same ‘word.exe’ hack at the ESL India Premiership Fall Season Finale where they won.
This will most likely result to sections and penalties from ESL and Esports Integrity Coalition (ESIC). ESL India have already considers the incident as a level 4 offense under the ESIC code of conduct. The penalties include a “fine of up to 100% of Match and/or Event Prize money” and multiple ranges of suspensions that may even reach a lifetime ban.
ESL India is expected to issue a statement for sanctions against him and other matters regarding the tournament that was marred by the cheat.